Today has brought on something new. Beginning today I am battling a feeling of failure, fear, and disdain for myself. Why haven't I found something? What have I not done?

As of today I have sent out well over 50 resumes and at least 15 applications. It feels like nothing is going to give. I know I am at a low point. I know this is not forever, but damn.

My severance is over as of yesterday. I will have to meet with the unemployment office to see why I was denied that claim.Best guess is an insignificant error. But still. I feel like I am hitting a brick wall.

Hopefully things will happen Monday to put all worries to bed. But for now they are haunting me.