Today, after the package came I had such a high.... now..... I feel worse than shit. I just want Grant home NOW Homecomming cannot come soon enough. The weight is not comming off as fast as I would like. I swear this is not something a person should endure back to back. Letters and phone calls are nice, but the hours that follow are a mixed bag of joy, and pain. It just makes the distance so much more REAL. Where before it was just in the background... this brings it to the front of the mind... I hate this feeling...